when will i finally get the drift and finally move on and be happy with my life? =/ one of my professors had a rough day today..and she was just going through a troubling time..but after the lecture of about knowing yourself..and herself..she was a lot better. i know through this whole lecture...i cried at least 3 times. it really meant a lot to me that someone who, which i know is bad, is going through a rough time in her life, is telling us that we have to take care of ourselves. if we dont..then we will just end up hurting ourselves more and more each day..i must say...its time for me to let go...

anyone up for a massage? =P im in class waiting for clinicals to start. i cant wait to be done with today...i finally get to see my parents! yay! i have seen them in over a couple of months...oops lol. i need to be better at this thing called life...i would like to have someone "special" in my life...when will it be my turn? =/ i gotta be patient...

im in lost in words right now on how im feeling. i feel as if there are things in my life that i have no control over. i was at a meeting last night down in cincy. i must say that it opened up my eyes and my point of view on certain things. i need to think on a brighter side of things. i was saved in april this year..and baptized in august. i need to start believing in God and that He is willing to help me out with anything that i need. i need to start thinking that things will work out in the end and not see things at a bad side.

anyways, in class today, i didnt have to work on clients this afternoon. (i attend a massage therapy school). however, there is a certain classmate in our class that i feel she needs to check her opinions on people or negative attitude at the door. i dunno if she is just going through a phase or what..but she was just plain rude today. im sorry that i laughed at u...i didnt know u spilled ur drink in class. i thought u had dropped one of ur sheets as u were setting up....im sorry u think that "butt" into certain conversations. im sorry that u feel that the world has to revolve around u. but u know what. other people have feelings too. and if u feel that u have something to say about me...then say it to my face. dont bother telling others in the class about how u think about me.

hmm who next? lol i just need to get this out of my system...i need to just let go of what i see or feel and just finally move on. i have a couple of people in mind...but im running out of time at the moment to keep up with this..until then.....